New Year, New Life, New Me

2009 was a horrible year and I am so glad it's over. So far 2010 has been pretty good. I met this wonderful man who is amazing. In 2009 I made new friends and lost some recently in this year. I only want to associate with positive people that will not drag me down. So I have had to drop a few people. There was about 3 or 4 people that were just too negative, or immature that I just had to drop. I still have my best friends ever that mean a lot to me, and of course I have my family.
I am Bipolar and just recently started taking meds and going to therapy. So far the meds are just starting to help. Won't get full effect until I reach a therapeutic level. Things are beginning to improve with my home life. My mom and I are trying to work out our differences so as to provide an even better home life for my kids.
As for a job, I'm still searching but as of right now my dad may need to have back surgery so my folks don't want me to continue to search right now. If he does have to have surgery he could be out of work for a while and be stuck in a bed for 6 weeks or more. We'll find out today if he has to have surgery or not. So I will not be able to work for a while if he does I'll have to be here to take care of him and get him what he needs. Hope everything goes well with that.
I am looking forward to a new year. I'm making a lot of changes and trying to be more positive. Change doesn't come overnight it'll take time but I am trying to be a better person. I'm trying to be a more positive person and a better mother. Things are better now with the new medication I seem to have more energy which actually allows me to do more with my children. Some people just don't realize how truly debilitating manic depression can be. When I am depressed it's hard to get up and do anything. I have NO energy and no desire really to do anything more than I have to do. Sometimes the depression can be so bad that you just don't even want to move or eat or anything. Glad that now that is all behind me.
I have a few things to say to a few people. I will use letters instead of names but you will know who you are.

J.W.- I'm sorry I haven't been there for you as much as I used to be lately. I've had so much going on here that I haven't had the time to talk to you that much. Plus you know I don't agree with a few things you have been doing. Even if me and L are not friends anymore I still don't agree with the way you have treated her. But I will try to be a better friend just realize I don't have alot of time to talk on the phone all the time I do have 3 kids. lol

B.- I do apologize for anything hurtful or mean that may have been said, it was immature and not necessary, I am above all that petty crap and should not have allowed myself to sink down to that level. I decided to end things where they were because I do not agree with lying to intentionally hurt someone. Just to be mean and hateful like that I just can't deal with that kind of immaturity and don't need it in my life. I am almost 25 and I am better than all that high school bullshit and will not be associated with anyone who acts like they are still in high school and do nothing but cause drama for other people. I apologize for anything that may have offended you. It's done and over with now just let things be. We are adults and should act like it.

J.B.- You have been amazing and are my very best friend other than Amy. You have been there with me for so much and I will always be here for you. I am glad you are happy with K and I hope things work out for ya'll this time. Just look forward to the future and not to the past. If you always look behind you, you'll trip over things in front of you. lol.

All in all I think maybe this year will be a good year. I'm happy and trying to stay positive. I love my life and my family, I am very thankful for all that I have in my life.